I know at other points in my life I have felt change blowing in. Earlier this year I felt that. Little did I know how many things would blow in, the greatest of which being the loss of my dad. The details of my life, the things I struggle with are much like anyone else's life. So I won't bore you with all of the specifics. Bottom line...there seems to be a season change in progress. Remember when I talked about the hermit crab we got. The link to the post is there in case you missed it. Part of me loves the excitement of change and the other part of me just wants to stay safe...even if the tank is crowded.
It's like the Olympians who think...this is it. This is my one chance. This is what I'm supposed to do! And then there's a fall. An injury. Hope is gone. They could stop trying or they could get back up and try again. My Handsome Hubby and I repeatedly catch ourselves saying..."Can you imagine how much they have to practice to get to this point?!?! To get it right?!?!" We could learn a lot from them.
Last night, we lay in bed and I said, "I miss Dad. I miss his encouragement and hope that he'd give when I was down or faced with a big challenge." I went on saying, I know that I've been through a lot in life. I can see how all of the big changes, big challenges, big sorrows, have brought with them great growth, joy, or opportunities. I know this. I read my devotions, my Bible, and it's like God is tapping me on the shoulder whispering gently, "Trust Diana, just trust," In Matthew 11:28-29 he says, Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
I know this stuff. But when I'm faced with my challenges... When it seems like everything is so confusing and there is SO MUCH unknown. It's tough for this human mind to trust. Yet once we do it is the easiest thing in the world. My Handsome Hubby held me as I said, "How can you know something, have lived through challenges, seen the fingerprints of God all over your life, and still get discouraged when tough times come? Why is it I still struggle to see the forest in spite of the trees?"
Last night, I fell asleep to the lyrics of this song running through my head. I hope it encourages you like it does me. Click the link to the video in the song title below.
Beauty For Ashes
written by Randy L. Scruggs; John W. Thompson.
Sung by Crystal Lewis