Step one...grow your faith. In the past, I've been pretty quiet about my faith. I choose to live it out. Try to walk the walk. And with God's grace I pray that other's might see Him through me. I go through waves of reading my devotionals every day. Doing a bible study. When this is in place...I'm more at peace. Things don't bother me as much. People don't bother me as much. This is what I need to do to stay healthy.
My heart is taking a long time to heal. At the 8 month mark I still have chest pains. But in some ways it's good. It's a reminder that my being here is a gift. Whether you've had a heart attack or not...it's a gift. I want to honor that gift and my heavenly Daddy who gave it to me. He loves me so much. You know how when someone gives you an awesome Christmas or Birthday present and you're speechless and want to give them something back. That's how I feel about God. I know I can never out-give Him. But I want to live for Him. I want to please Him just like my Superhero#1 and Superhero #2 try to please my hubby and I.
I've gone through a lot of trials in my short life, an emotionally, verbally, physically abusive relationship, lost jobs, challenging people, moving from everything I know, friendships built and broken, deaths, close family members with cancer, organ transplants, etc. My grandma said God uses those times to purify us into his precious gold. I jokingly told her once that He must be changing me to platinum because I was completely broken and at a loss at what to do. Well now I have a chromium-platinum stent in my heart. And you know what? He is changing me. He's been waiting there all along wanting to love on me, comfort me, and shape me into me but better. He wants me to reclaim the lost time and live life fully. Along the way His plans have far surpassed mine EVERY SINGLE TIME. So on my journey...my faith is a part of it all.